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so fucking painful every time still when I see her pictures/video.  She was crossed around 13:45pm on 10/15/2018 due to severe kidney failure and liver tumors.

Gigi, female 13 years old

As soon as I contacted Gigi she made me feel that she knew me. She was so nice and gentle with me and said that she is very happy that you are taking the time to really listen to what she needs to say.

I told her you want her to be as honest as possible and to tell us exactly what she would like and you will comply with it.

She agreed:

I am so grateful to have her with me for so many years.  I still love her very much.  I feel sorry to give her med when she was so hated been held and fed med.

I was wondering why you didn’t noticed that I hated so much to be fed medications. I tried to tell you in all the usual ways but you continued.

I understand now that you are doing all of these to make me feel better but it is not helping anymore.

I think that at one time I was feeling better with some of the liquids? But now nothing is making me feel better.

I am ready to go on to spirit now.

I am not doing well, and don’t enjoy being home anymore.

This home is my love, I enjoyed every minute of my home and I have been very happy here.

That’s why I can say with certainty that I no longer enjoy being here or being alive. Everything I do is a struggle and my body is not responding to what my mind thinks wants to do.

I have had visits from all my past friends and they are all telling me the time has come and it’s drawing near. All I have to do is make the choice.

Mom. I am making right now the choice to leave.

I can’t do this any longer and I know you will be sad, but I will be happy to join all of those who are waiting for me. I have no concerns and no worries at all.

I know they will be with me the rest of the way. They told me so.

I am very uncomfortable.

There isn’t a lot of pain but my body is just not responding and all I can do right now is wait.

I know you have tried many things but nothing makes me feel better.

In fact, every time you put some food out for me and LEAVE IT THERE makes me gag because I have a lot of nauses.

Please remove the plate with food from in front of me. It’s no longer necessary.

I don’t know if I can.

But if you want me to do it, I will.

I will try my best to stay around so that you feel you said your last goodbye.

My body might have other plans, I do not know. . .

My head is telling me that it is OK to wait until Monday.

No, I don’t want to leave my home.

This is the place I loved.

I also have friends here.

I happen to like my doctor, but at this time I much rather die at home in a place where I know and love, surrounded by others who know me and next to you until my last breath.

You have been the greatest Mom.

Everyone told me that, when I came in but I wasn’t sure it was true.

But you proved to be an exceptional human and one that I will talk about when I meet everyone else in spirit.

I know that you will continue to do great things for other cats and it makes me very proud to have been one of your team.

Thank you for all you do, not only for me, but for all who need you.

You are a special human and I love you.